The 21st of August, 2019
A brief conversation with my daughter this week shed light on some of the health issues my ex-husband is currently facing. Actually, she left me a message on what had transpired and I called her right back. Normally, if I am in the middle of work, I usually text her after a message to inform her that I will call later. But it was placed in my heart to know more. I stopped what I was doing and immediately called her back.
You see, I haven’t spoken to him since December of 2018, based on what I decided was unfairness on his part. I know, some of you may think that this is not the Christian thing to do, but honestly, I really just needed a break. Yet, I was still mourning a lost friendship…a friendship that took time to build after our divorce, caused by spiritual immaturity on both of our parts, which led to many unresolved issues and mistakes. It was just easier for us to part ways. Sometimes I regret that decision, but now in my single life, I am guided every day by God to continuously establish my personal life with Him. A life that is intimate, quiet, and full of peace.
The Apostle Paul’s writings in 1 Corinthians 7:7-9 helps me so. It offers such purity in thoughts and actions. And, I am never lonely with God by my side. Adjustment from single life to married life again, would be such a challenge for me. I feel as though I would be caught between my love for God and someone else. Conversely, though, if this person was sent from God, this would mean that my pure love would still go toward Him who is God, to the person He sent to me. Are you confused yet? 🙂
My choice is to be obedient to God through the adherence of a single life of purity in all areas. I do not have to go into details here. And although, I have had some relationships, they were companionship-based and honored my core belief systems. I am so thankful for those sweet moments of the past, as they showed me that I could love deeply without the complications that come with “relations” outside of marriage. My love for those in these type of relationships were beautiful lessons from God. My obedience were never in jeopardy of falter, because I take Him so seriously (Micah 6:8 MSG).
If I am to be blessed with a Godly love-interest again, I aim to be compassionate and loyal to my love (Micah 6:8 MSG). I would expect the same from this person too. It would only be fair, don’t you think?
I spoke with my ex-husband once again, and wished him well on this 2019 college football season. He responded by saying “It warms my heart that you finally contacted me again. You are the best friend I have, and always wanted.”
Sigh…that was kind of nice of him to say 🙂
Gosh! It is so freeing to write on this, as I continue to remain hopeful in all things life!
In grace & in gratitude,